Autism

A really hard part of autism is learning how to socialise, learning how to build connections, make friends and read people's emotions. It took me seven, eight years to be able to accurately figure out if someone's sad or upset, as in mad. Um, so mad or sad or happy or angry. I used to get confused a lot for some reason. I used to get emotions that you wouldn't expect to be mixed up, mixed up with other people, even with myself. And learning to socialise and to read emotions was so hard. It was a lot of watching people and watching how they react to people acting a certain way. It was very weird for some people, but it helped me.

The hardest aspect of autism, at least for me, is overload. When too much sensory input, so too many things are going on that I can hear, see, too many smells, too many tastes sometimes. If there's too many smells, often the air will have too many tastes. It's very hard to explain to someone that doesn't have autism, but even having too many types of fabrics on in my clothing can sometimes make me crawl into a ball and cry. It is so hard to explain, but so hard to go through. Even in lessons, I'm a student and I'll be trying to focus on a lesson, but I'll hear outside noises outside the door and not be able to focus 100% on the lesson because there's too much going on.