Social Anxiety

Personal experience I had with social anxiety is when I was in high school. I was able to make the advance choir and we got to do this retreat. We got to go to a really big home and we got to have an overnight. It seemed exciting. I had friends there, but at times I felt really just anxious and I remember particularly this time we had a big group and we had to share things about ourselves and we just kind of went one by one answering, you know, all these questions. And I remember I said a couple things that it seemed like people thought I said something really really weird and I just remember feeling really embarrassed and really disconnected from people and it was it was kind of a miserable experience.

So I have a lot of social anxiety. I'm always very shy and uncomfortable and awkward with strangers, which is really, really frustrating when I want to make friends or I want to talk to somebody because I'm interested in a product or an item or whatever. I'm a very big chicken when it comes to that kind of stuff. My anxiety, my social anxiety is just very high. And my boyfriend knows it. Usually I get him to try to do stuff instead of me or call somebody instead of me because I get nervous, I get shaky, I get like, I feel sick to my stomach, kind of. And then, you know, looking back on it, like at the end of the day, I get upset because it's like, why? Why was I even like that? There was no reason to be so like on edge. So social anxiety is definitely a thing I need to work with if I want to make more friends.