Personal experiences - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder Video Transcripts
Video 1 Transcript
I've had OCD my whole life, and one thing that I have learned from this is that while it sucks, it has been the most humbling and spiritually uplifting thing that is what brought me closest to God, because I just don't have any control ever, and so I have to rely completely on God that he has me, even when I'm spiraling, even when my brain doubts that God's even there, like, anyways, and so I just, I guess my personal experience with OCD is that it really sucks, but it's a challenge that we've been given because God knows we can handle it, and we, yeah, anyways, I didn't really think my thoughts out super great before I clicked record, but, so yeah.
Video 2 Transcript
I was diagnosed with OCD and Tourette's Syndrome when I was, I think, about third or fourth grade, something like that. With Tourette's Syndrome, I had these, like, tics, these motor tics or movements that I felt like I had to do. As far as OCD goes, I, like, flipping light switches a certain number of times, tapping doors as I walked by them, smiling at a mirror every time I passed by them. It's, like, I knew I didn't have to do these things, but I, like, I knew they weren't necessary at all, but I had this urge that I needed to complete it, and if I didn't complete it correctly, then I had to do it again. For example, you know, flipping a light switch, like, a certain number of times, and if, like, maybe I tripped in the middle of that, or if I was distracted or something, I'd have to do that again. And I know when I'd done it right or something, when, like, it feels satisfactory to me.
Video 3 Transcript
So when I was in elementary school, there was just certain things that I did that my parents just didn't understand. And the people, like my teachers for example, I would take super super long on tests. And I was a good student, but I would always have to be sent to another classroom to finish it. And there's just all these little things. So I went into a specialist and I was diagnosed with OCD. And I'd say it wasn't terrible. It was probably, I'd say, moderate OCD. And then as I got older, it got a little bit better. I definitely still have it. And especially moving out to college has gotten, has triggered it a lot. And so there's just certain things where it manifests itself pretty intensely still. And I've learned how to like better deal with it, but it doesn't go away.
Video 4 Transcript
So I have what's called scrupulosity, which is like religious OCD, so my obsessions and my compulsions really surround that, and got really really bad on my mission for obvious reasons, and I have been super blessed to be able to get a lot of help. I started seeing the mission counselor on my mission, I got on medication on Lexapro, and I ended up switching medications after I got home, but life was very difficult for me as a missionary, not because of the mission, but because of the OCD, and I'm grateful I was able to get help, and now because I know how to manage my OCD in very difficult situations where you're under a lot of pressure and where a lot is expected of you, now that I'm home and I have similar situations, a lot is expected of me, things like that, I know how to cope with it, and that's been a huge blessing. It's hard, it's super hard, but you can live a happy life regardless, I know that because I have.
Video 5 Transcript
So I have OCD and I was only diagnosed about six weeks ago after 30 years of going through it and I decided enough was enough and I wanted to take action and so must you if you feel scared about coming forward and talking about your experiences don't be because this is the first step on the road to acknowledging it and to learning how to deal with it and managing it for a less anxious life and I would have these thoughts that just pop into my head from a very early age and I'd try to deny them. Horrible thoughts that go against what you believe in and OCD always attacks what you believe in and you know think no no no I don't believe that I didn't have that thought that's not me think something nice but then it would keep coming back and also the more cups of coffee that you drink caffeinated coffee I found the worse it would get so I limit myself now.
Video 6 Transcript
I have a mental health condition called scrupulosity. It's a form of OCD, dealing with morals, and I found out about it because a lot of things were causing me anxiety and stress that should have been uplifting. And I think it's really important for more people to know about scrupulosity and to understand that they're not alone when they're stressed out by things that should be good.
Video 7 Transcript
When I was about 14, I would barricade my door in my bedroom because I thought I could during the night go out and harm one of my parents, which is bizarre. It sounds bizarre, but it's, it's, and it feels strange even talking about it now, but it's part of an OCD subset, responsibility OCD, that you take responsibility for everybody and everything, and OCD attacks what you value most. And those horrible thoughts, you might just do that. You might just go and attack your loved one when, you know, when you're asleep or something like that. And so, better barricade your door up. And so I did. Of course, it was completely illogical, but it's just part of what OCD is.
Video 8 Transcript
I recently discovered that I struggle with a specific OCD disorder called scrupulosity. It is religious OCD, so similar to how maybe OCD with hygiene, you're afraid that you're going to get sick. OCD with religion is kind of like you're afraid you're going to go to hell. It's this irrational fear that you need to do these things. It's super anxiety filled, and it feels like it's coming from the spirit, but it's not. It's these anxious feelings that come that you feel like you need to do right away or something terrible is going to happen, and it's not necessarily the case. It's something I didn't know about, but really helped when I came to learn about it. I just like to share that with people in case anybody else is struggling with that, and then they can get the same help that they need.
